I reload tumblr, for the 4th time this hour. I hope it has new content, but I know it won't. It never does.

I check discord. No new messages. As usual.

I open reddit. Nothing new, no unreads.

I look around me. Nothing in my room has changed in months.

I look at my life. I haven't had something not in the schedule for months.

I look at myself.

I am another face in the crowd. I am a background character in the lives of other people, one to be occasionally looked at but never in any great detail.

I am, effectively, not a person.